April 23, 2021

Strong and Silent Type

better to be a stone lion
on a pedestal under a tree

the strong and silent type

than part of humanity 

I’d rather be a tall sprawling mountain

with a blanket of snow on my face

with dangerous icy passes

forbidding the human race 

a river quietly flowing through a valley

on its way to a mighty sea

going where it wants to go 

that’s what I’d rather be 

never ending waves of motion

an ocean washing up on shore

never ending waves of motion

then out again once more

a north wind blowing in

sending a chill through the air

throwing bitter cold daggers

here, there, and everywhere

April 20, 2021

Winter Inhabits My Soul

winter inhabits my soul wherever that is
whatever it is — if it even exists at all

I can identify with its icyness 

icicles in my heart, in my blood

sing the blues from the quivering ocean 

wave after wave / unceasing 

no one else dared the elements 

mercury, palladium, cobalt, god knows what else

spirit rising into the gray blanket of a sky 

drifting further and further away from this crazy house 

over the sea that I could barely see

into a milky white nothingness 

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found peace on that windswept beach on a cold cold day

I could hear a ship in the fog searching for home

foghorn speaking of desperation 

it started to drizzle, a drizzle of coldness and loneliness 

with any luck it’ll turn to flurries

Alas, I returned to reality 

I grew wet and cold and in need of love

shuffled up to the beachside restaurant / closed

the bar down the street was open and warm and dry

bourbons hug was warm and affectionate 

from my counter seat I wondered what had happened to that ship

wondered about the men aboard

what kinds of lives they led

silly things to think about I suppose 

all the time wishing I was like them

laughably from the comfortable confines of a warm pub

the rain had turned to snow

my soul grew colder and I rejoiced in it

April 17, 2021

Black Dog Sunday

black dog sunday
rain coming down

black dog everyday

following me around 

there he is-- everywhere I go

around every corner, down every street

can’t get away from him 

gonna give in, I’m so beat

whatever’s beyond this has got to be better

but you think that I shouldn’t end it?

you ain’t walked in my shoes jack

been through what I’ve been through jill 

you have no idea, no concept

don’t give me that LIFE IS PRECIOUS CRAP

if I off myself

what difference does it make

what’s the point?

I can’t take it no more

it’s all so useless

if tonight is my last night on earth

so be it